I feel like I’ve been a bit all over the place lately. I’m the queen of making lists upon lists, but even with my borderline-OCD list making, I feel like I’m only focusing on the day-to-day and not the bigger picture. I get too caught up in the how. How will I get there? How will I make it happen? How can I make it happen faster? I think I’ve been far too impatient and stubborn to ever grasp the concept of letting the universe take care of the how. I just like to handle things on my own because I feel more satisfied knowing that I got myself there.
Unfortunately I’m at a wall… that wall is the how. I have to finally jump head first into the positive thinking movement that I’m secretly and cynically judging all the time. This is going to be a huge challenge for me to just let go and not worry about the how, but I have no choice. Don’t worry.. I’m not going to go all ‘Namaste’ on you, but I do need to make a slight shift in my attitude and way of thinking if I’m going to get anywhere with this.
Blame the changing seasons for this sudden post on reflection, but I think it’s a nice reminder to constantly evolve and change, much like the seasons do.
Are there any previously-cynical-turned-positive-thinkers out there that have some advice for me?